I am none of those...
I am a perfectionist, an analyzer; I want everything to make sense, to be integrated. To be PERFECT. This is who I am: Open, honest, yet only about the superficial. I struggle, I hurt, I hold on to hurt and use it as a shield, a wall, a fortress I have surrounded myself with, not realizing that I only barricaded myself in. It is lonely in here.
Then one day I heard the faintest sound, my name, I heard the voice in the deepest recesses of my heart. A muted, almost unheard whisper, if I hadn't been still, still in my grief, my pain and agony of a life unfulfilled, I may not have heard it. But just maybe, He knew that's when I would respond with the most passion, the most sincerity.
And, I did! I did respond, I reached out through the bars of my barricade, just to experience a brush of his robe. He grabbed my hand, an unexpected, tender grasp, and yet a hold I knew in my heart - a hold HE would never release.
I lunged forward, yet still thru the bars, to hold tight to Him. My desire in the inmost of my being is to know Him, to see His face, to touch it. And, when I am really reaching, I find Him, His peace, His truth, His beauty. That's it! That's what I want this to be about...
My search, my search for PEACE, and TRUTH, and BEAUTY!!!
The kind that only comes from Him, the kind that only HE can give, the One with the nail-pierced hands.
This is my heart's cry:
- to conquer that part of me that stays behind the bars (Romans 8:37)
- to live my life as worthy as the One who created it. (1 Peter 1:15)
- to live the Divine (live in the Divine). (Psalm 116:9)
- to practice the presence of the Holy. (Ps 118:19-21)
- to be FULL of peace and truth and the beauty that is so precious to Him - a gentle and quiet spirit. (1 Peter 3:4)
That is what will be here...
This is the NEW Southern Belle...Welcome!
